This is my story
Hi there - thanks for stopping by ..... my story - well I have always been overweight but my first real memory was at 12 years old being a full bodied size 12 - now most of us woud dream of that as an ideal weight today - but at 12, well I was just too big! At age 14 I enrolled in my first weight watchers class and spent the rest of my tens on and off fad diets to lose a quick few pounds. The doctor used to see me on a friday night - wiegh in night for fatties - and afterwards on the way home - I stopped at the sweet shop and by the time I got in doors had undone any good work plus lots more in all honesty!
Time marched on and so did my weight - at 16 I was asked to 'perform' in the school fashion show as they needed a size 16 and I was the only one who could fit into that size - and it has to be said I only just fitted into it too - some of those zips were altogether too tight!
Humiliation, fatigue, embarrassment, are all feelings I associate with growing up - all down to the fact I was so large. Coming from a 'well covered' family weight is always a constant topic of conversation. No one ever loses more than a stone or two and always gains it back very quickly - so none of us has ever sustained a weight loss. Food is a constant in my life as a reward, comfort, punishment, incentive, luxury all of those occassions will involve or revolve around food - and none of the events included healthy salads of course!
Two children have not helped my waistline but it's not right to blame them - at the end of the day it's down to me and I truly believe I am addicted to food - particularly sweet, stodgy, carb laden foods!
In the course of my life I have tried just about everything there is on the market, weightwatchers, slimming world, cambridge, slimming pills (and they have gr8 results but you become a space cadet and don't sleep, my skin deteriorated and I became a very difficult person to be with!), low protein, high protein, atkins, you name it and I have probably done it. And they all do work for a while - but I don't seem to be able to sustain the loss after a stone I give in to the old habits - as I've never really addressed the reasons why I eat in the first place.
September 2005 I had gastric band surgery through the Hospital Group. I lost 10 pounds inthe first month - which was not fantastic but better than gaining. Then had the fill in January 2006. Again lost another 18 pounds in the first 6 weeks. But from there it stopped! I was back to eating sweets, chocolate, crisps, nuts, stodge all day and although I didn't gain any weight I didn't lose any either.
So I am now £8000 worse off in my account and have actually ony lost 2 stones. My mood was depressive, I was irritable, resentful, angry with myself and everyone around me and still not losing weight.
In April this year I discovered a new product ' Lighterlife - it is based onthe old Cambridge diet of very low caloried diets. It removes food completely from my life - I have only 4 meal replacements a day - and must drink 4 litres of water too. It's tough of course it is, but it REALLY works. After 4 months on the programme I have lost another 25 pounds and am absolutely thrilled. The difference with this is they do address the triggers through their therapy sessions on why I eat, what happens in my head to make me turn to food and how I feel at the time.
There are so many products out there to try to help us addicts but this is definitately the best I've come across so far. AND I feel absolutely brilliant I can't tell you how gr8 it feels to start to live my life again and enjoy being me, and socialising, and buying clothes - I now have so much choice it's incredible.
My motto would have to be that whatever method of weightloss you choose stick to it - they all do work in time, some quicker than others, some are easier than others, but remember always why you want to do this programme, it's to make YOU feel better.
Good luck! |
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17-10-2006 1:23 pm
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Ideal weight:
129.98 lbs (58.96 kg)
Starting weight:
145.00 lbs (65.77 kg)
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