I tried to do a headstand and put my neck out.
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This is my story
Early childhood onwards: Parents modelled neuroticism around food, revulsion at fat on their own and other people's bodies (including my own as a young child), and an almost religious belief that the future would be magical in its perfection if only they managed to lose weight by the time it appeared. Other than food/weight issues, they were lovely parents, and my sister has always been a normal weight. I wonder why their attitude affected me so much more? I have a few theories about that, but probably not very interesting to read!
body consciousness, for which of course I blame my mother, and eyes bigger than stomach since before I can remember. Which came first? I don't know - possibly the chicken, which led to....
school: starvation diets (bran pills for lunch)
starvation version of 'the f plan' - cue a lot of farting and definitely no boyfriends.
hating my body and feeling fat at 8 stone nothing
Full on proper binging, not just overeating. Secret eating
Fruit fasts and compulsive reading of militant health books penned by Leslie Kenton.
Binging
Not eating for days
followed by binging
healthy eating and walking, followed by binging followed by...
slimming world
binging
Overeaters anonymous
binging, followed (again) by slimming world), followed by healthy eating and gym
then
Overeaters anonymous, followed by
binging
Lighterlife (a very low calorie diet (no food, only ready mixed powders, a bit like slimfast), combined with equally prepackaged 'cognitive behaviour therapy') for 3 months, resulting in a normal weight for the first time in my adult life.
Binging followed by Atkins, binging and then Overeaters anonymous
much compulsive purchasing of diet/stop binging books
More binging followed by
Sugar free, yeastfree, minimal dairy, wheat or junk.
No binging for 2 months, taking it one day at a time given my track record. Have lost about 5 pounds by enjoying the remaining food left to me. I am aware that in order to lose any more weight, I would have to consciously restrict my intake, which I worry may lead to....have you guessed yet? At the moment I'm just enjoying the return to relative sanity, how ever brief it turns out to be.
