Now the Thinner girl next door
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This Buddy last logged in at 13-04-2011
Birthday: 15-05-1979
This is my story
I am often referred to as 'the big one', 'fatty', 'gibblet' and 'her that looks like a rugby player'. In fact, i am Laura, a 28 year old mother of 3. I was 16/17 when I had my son Robert and was a sexy, confident person. Since then I've not been able to get under 16 Stone and now I am at my heaviest of 21 stone 10. I am 5 foot 11 which makes it worse as people just see me as some giant or 'female Hagrid' as some kids recently said.
I managed to stick at Slimming World for 6 years, I yo-yo'd around until I got married in 2004 and deceided enough was enough....i knew i wanted more children so I had Carrie-Anne (3) and Ewan James (14 mths) and forgot about weight, obesity, flabby bingo arms, sagging belly etc
Along with ignoring my body and trying to seem confident in life came a horrific feeling of anxiety and paranoia every time I left the house. I went back to work and was picked on by my boss and colleagues for having a baby, my confidence was gone and they made me feel so bad about myself so much that I attempted suicide. Luckily I was ok and have received great support from my local community nurse. Between talking to her and my doctor one week I made a comment that I felt I wanted to return to work or even get a new job but always feel penalised in interviews for being 'fat' so we all agreed that in order to get my life moving along better I needed to loose weight, my confidence should then creep back and I'd be able to look for a new job away from the bullies. I am scheduled to have my lap band on the 25th April 08. I can't wait, I am so looking forward to being that little bit lighter just to be able to run around with the children more. Be able to carry or play with them without moaning that I am out of breath, be able to go swimming with them without thinking of scenes from the movie Shallow Hal. I know it will be hard work but I have never felt more committed to anything else ever. My Son Robert will be so proud of me when I loose all the weight, we can play football together and he not be ashamed of me like he seems to be at the moment.
