This is my story
Hello to all the Buddies!!! I have registered here about a year ago, but never really have done anything...
So here I m... My name is Yulya (Julia might be a bit easier to pronounce in this part of the world!). Im half Estonian/half Spanish, with Russian name and German last name. I was born in Soviet Union just a bit over 30 yrs ago, then lived in Estonia (without even moving a bit!). In 2002 I went for a 2 wks holidays to Ireland to visit my friend...and lived here ever since! Somewhere in between these yrs, a 22 yr old jolly size 8 student turned into size 18 housewife, mother of 2 in full time employment. To top it up - a single mother...
Relationship with my ex was a complicated one. U would think partners would be like players on the same team, but we were playing mostly against each other. I got pregnant with my first child way too soon, too soon to find out what kind a person my boyfrind was.... My problem with the weight came out of comfort eating.. every time we would fight, I would turn to food. I didnt take all that long to gain 5 st - from 7.8 st all the way up to 13st. Most of it within 2 yrs.. To add insult to an injury, my darling instead of being supportive on the subject, got me a new nickmname 'fat..s'!
I cant say we broke up because of me being overweight (I should say here 'obese' really - with my height of between 5.1 and 5.2 I was well pass being overweight!). I wanted a change in my life, my personal life, my social life. I wanted to break free from everything...
I was looking at the old pictures of myself.. and I can see how my personality have changed over these years. Years ago you won't catch me without a smile, now I hate to be taken pictures off. I have to make sure Im sitting in a particular way, that my belly wont be sticking out, that double chin is not that noticeable...I m sure some of u ladies are well familiar with the procedure.
My wardrobe has changed dramatically as well. It used to be high heels (to add those valuable inches to my petite height!), mini skirts, dressers, bikini for the summer time... When I have sent my darling boyfriend of nearly 5 yrs out, I have an inventory in my wardrobe - tracksuit bottoms, more tracksuit bottoms, and even more tracksuit bottoms, tonnes of flabby tshirts (isn't that the way to cover up?), flat shoes and who knows how many pairs of runners. The only decent looking piece in the wardrobe was my suit for work in size 18(!!!) that's depressing , isn't it? (Anyone feels like a 20th cuppa tea with cream eclair for comforting?!)
While all my friends from work would be getting ready to go out at the wkend, I would be stocking up on the chocolates for my lonely sat nights in... Feel sorry for myself an eat even more....
So going back my pictures from another life - I WAS ME!! And I wanted to become that me again!!! I didnt want my kids to be asking me if they are getting another sister or brother, because 'mummy, you're belly is sooo big, we think there is a baby in it!!'
I dont want to be single for the rest of my life!! Im not saying , if you have few extra pounds there is no hope of having healthy relation ship with a guy. But knowing that you have those extra pounds made me change my attitude towards myself, my perception of what i look like and changed the way i behave...
So in April 2008 I have decided to turn that all around.. and have joint WeightWatchers meetings.. My kids were only 3 and 5, and being full time working single mum was a tough task... so needless to say I have missed more meetings that I have attended...
However, I did manage to loose some weight over the last year and a bit.. the whole 2 stone actually.. Mostly by cutting 20 cups of tea with 3-4 spoons of sugar out of my daily food consumption... as well as using olive oil in spray bottle when cooking and my deep fat fryer went to the skip!!!
Ok , not a bad going I can say. Im size 12- 14 now, guys are looking at me again... I feel healthier, more cheerful. Got few nice pieces in my wardrobe :). But from the health point of view I know that there are another 3 st left to battle. Some one can say 'ah girl, you look fine, You had 2 kids, dont be harsh on yourself..' But veins that are about to pop out on the back of my legs, pain in my back, digestive disorders (constipations), teenage spots make a different suggestion..
Unless, I WILL DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT - NO ONE WILL BE ABLE TO HELP ME!!
So Im going on a mission to lose those 3st or at least most of it. And I will be blogging about my journey, my progress, ideas etc... |
Has been a Buddy since:
22-04-2009 3:17 pm
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Ideal weight:
110.01 lbs (49.90 kg)
Current weight:
153.18 lbs (69.48 kg)
Starting weight:
180.01 lbs (81.65 kg)
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