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This Buddy last logged in at 26-10-2006
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This is my story
Hi I'm Jules, I have had (or believed I had) a weight problem since I was about 8 years old. My mother was obsessed about weight and because my sister was like a rake, my mum thought I should be too - she never took into account that we could be different shapes and sizes. So I've always heard comments from my mum about my weight and assumed I was always fat, but if i actually look at pictures of me back then, guess what??? I WAS NORMAL!!!!
I had difficult years growing up, I suffered abuse, physical and sexual, and I pretty much became a text book case. I thought if I was unattractive no one would want me, so my quest to get fat started - of course all this happens in the sub-concious and I was totally unaware of why I was gaining weight. After I had my daughter 15 years ago, I was terrified of having anymore children so got fatter and fatter in order to repel my husband - in actual fact I was terried of sexual intimacy not kids, but again I wasn't aware at the time.
I have done every diet out there - Cambridge diet, slimmiing pills, weightwatchers, slimming world, atkins, blood type diet......to name a few.....but none worked. I was very good at sabotaging every diet I started and not knowing why......at the age of 37 I had to accept that my eating was controlling me and my life, my husbands and daughters lives and I didn't want that anymore. I stopped seeking medical advice for normal things, because whatever I went to the doctors for, I would just be told "well, you need to lose weight" one doctor even told me I was grotesque!!!! Earlier this year I made the decision to have a gastric band fitted. My op was on 10th July and for the first time in my life I don't feel that the food is controlling me. I can now eat a normal size portion of food, i don't binge anymore and I can actually envision myself slimmer and healthier........I have a very long way to go, I need to lose half my weight, but I know I can do it - I am under no illusion that it will all be easy now I have the band, but the band will help and I will do my part, exercise and good food choices........
